12 Things Healing Truths I'm Trying to Remember

1. "A heart that breaks open can contain the whole world"
2. Losing my understanding of the world will eventually make way for finding deeper truths.
3. I can listen for answers without knowing the right questions.
4. Laying in bed crying can do a lot for a battered soul.
5. I am not alone.
6. Love is stronger than hate. Forgiveness is stronger than animosity.
7. I can be brave enough to acknowledge deep pain.
8. Hope.
9. Patience.
10. The burden is not mine alone to carry.
11. Healing takes space and gentleness.
12. Silence tells many secrets to the heart.


What soft whispers do you tell yourself in times of healing and rebirth?

Midterms.

I simultaneously love and hate the library during exams.

Love it because the energy and momentum to soak in (or cram) as much knowledge as possible is a joint endeavor.

Hate it because people look they they're about to burst and I wish I had time to leave love-notes and give every single person fresh fruit and hugs.

May you find joy and peace in these high-momentum times, knowing that they are a rare experience in shared urgency.

Coming Alive

"The worst mistake that you can make is to think you're alive when really you're asleep in life's waiting room." - Waking Life

Here's what I'm practicing these days, as the end of my undergraduate career creeps up on me:

Step out of the waiting room and into the party...no matter how hard it feels. No matter how much it feels like "it's too late" or no matter how much I wonder, "why invest so much when i'm about to leave?"

Stay awake. No matter how strong the pull of sleep-walking can be. No matter how tired my eyes are or how deeply I just want to give up and rest. Feel this whole process. The anticipation of the end. The excitement of the now. The fear of the future. The small pangs of regret. Just feel through it all... awake to it all... and when i've had enough, when i've truly sat with these different feelings and let them speak their minds, then tell them that it's time for bed... that i've given them my time and i've got other things to care for now.

There is so much to be awake for these days... even the scarey, ambiguous unknown... esepecially the exciting new adventures. But there is no past or future that can live up to my present, so I'm going to stop letting them compete... withdraw my present from the competition, and just enjoy it. Just soak it all in. Just have fun.